Thursday, December 11, 2014

3-5 Sacred Ground - Closing the Circle



Walking the Medicine Wheel
- a poem for my wife - by Brock Jansen




Were I to travel all the earth and see all wonders great and small
My feet would land where I once stood as though I had not left at all

No more a woman would I be if I could reach this lofty goal
No taller would I stand in height, but I’d be deeper in my soul

The wind would blow, the forests sigh, the birds and beasts would live therein
The only change would be that I would know their beauty deep within

And having reached the finish line, with placid pools of wisdom gained
What other path in life have I but to take your hand and start again?

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Back to the Beginning

There is a sense of anticipation whenever one approaches the conclusion of some major project or significant event.  I’m talking about the special events – the ones that are months, or even years in the making.  I’m talking about that first kiss as an adolescent – the one that didn’t feel clumsy.  I’m talking about that moment when you are about to walk down the aisle and say, ‘I do’.  I’m talking about giving birth to your first child.  It is a head-swimming, physical sensation that makes you aware of the exact position of your spine.  It is a mix of eagerness, fear and awe, with an undercurrent of pride. 

Driving down the road, along the edge of the Mississippi River, I began to see signs saying that we were approaching Rock Island, IL, the final destination on my journey.  Did I feel that intense out-of-body anticipation?  No – but there was definitely eagerness, and fear, and awe, and pride.  You’ll have to remember that this is something that has been a part of me for nearly sixty years, lingering like an unfinished poem.  As much as I was excited to see it all come to an end, I was a little sad, too.  That sounds cliché, but I can’t help it.  

With as much joy and celebration as I could gather to my mind, I called out once more to all the spirits who may have chosen to take this journey with me and return to their ancestral home of Saukenuk, telling them that I had done everything in my power to ease their journey and balance the energies of the universe with love, and honor and understanding.





As I drove down the streets past buildings that have long taken the place of the great trees of the forest in this beautiful area, I was struck by how foreign and lifeless it would appear to the members of Black Hawk’s band.  The sharp angles and orderly patterns of our familiar life would look nothing like home if those people still walked the earth.

With effort, I tried to shed myself of the restraints of linear time and came to realize that any spirits who traveled with me would not be restricted to viewing the area as it is, but instead could see it as all things past, present and future.  In our world we call it ‘imagination’ or ‘vision’.  In the spirit world that is simply how it is.  This all occurred to me just in time to turn the corner and see the joining point of the two great rivers, the Mississippi and the Sinnissippi, and then suddenly I was given a hint of that vision as a gift from those spirits.  I was granted the ability to imagine what life was like for the people who lived here 200 years ago, and imagine a far-distant future where water, earth and sky are once again supreme.

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Walking on Sacred Ground

Across the street from the Watch Tower Lodge & Hauberg Indian Museum lies the last remnants of the forest that covered these hills when Makataimeshekiakiak ran through them as a boy and as a young man.  The Black Hawk Forest, a state of Illinois Nature Preserve, is the true guardian of the memories of this land.  The forests, like no other beings, understand the ebb and flow of life at a level beyond our own understanding, and if we listen to the forests we can learn more about ourselves.

Please watch this short video and listen to what the forest tells you.  The story is beautiful.


I wish that this video was of the Black Hawk Forest, but instead I must credit Samuel Orr for his beautiful time-lapse entitled 'a Forest Year'.  The video was taken in New York.


At one edge of the Black Hawk forest is the Singing Bird Center, where we started our walk of remembrance and honor.  Following the trails in the park, we walked a long, slow, clockwise circle.  My husband beat the drum as we walked, and at times we stopped to enjoy the beautiful flowers, or fungi, or animals that we saw.  Here are some of those photos.


Pokeweed (American Nightshade) - used as a treatment for rheumatism and arthritis




Yellow Slime Mold Fungi




Shelf (Bracket) Fungus - aka 'Artist's Fungus' - Used as an art medium




Another Bracket Fungus - possibly 'Hairy Bracket'



About halfway through the walk, we heard voices ahead, and knew that someone else had chosen this hot, muggy day to enjoy the trails through this lovely forest.  Through mutual silent consent, my husband and I kept walking, me with my beaded headband and walking stick and he beating on the drum.  Predictably, the three walkers (a mother and her two not-quite-teenage boys) fell into apprehensive silence as we approached.  I was amused, but we just smiled and said hello as we passed, and then it happened.  One of the boys simply couldn't help himself and he asked what we were doing.

I don't believe the woman would have spoken to us, but the boy who asked had clearly gained esteem in the eyes of the other boy for the sheer audacity and bravery involved.  I still get a grin when I remember the wide-eyed look he gave.  What followed was one of those experiences that boys remember the rest of their lives.

Deep in the heart of the Black Hawk Forest, to the slow, gentle rhythm of the drum-beat, I told our story and Black Hawk's story, and told them that we had traveled over 1000 miles following Black Hawk's trail, and that we were on the final day of our journey.  I told them that the forest was once the home of the Sauk and Meskwaki peoples, and that some of the trees that surrounded us were alive and growing back in 1830 when those Indians lived here.  I told them that the trees have spirits, and they remember the days when there were no cities and no cars, and that each of them tells their own story if you learn how to listen.





They asked questions, and I gave answers.  I asked if they would like to participate in a ceremony honoring the grandfathers of the four directions, and they eagerly agreed.  Closing my eyes, I faced north and began the ritual of honoring the spirits of each of the four directions, and mother earth and father sky.  As I turned, and as I spoke, they each turned with me and listened to my words.



When I finished, they excitedly told us about the things that they had seen in the forest that day (we had become fast friends by that point) and wished us well on the last part of our journey.  Even if that had been the only joy I felt that day, the day would have been worth it.

We continued on our walk, and noticed one fallen tree in particular that had the overall appearance of a moose laying down in the woods;



A LOT like a moose, actually.


If only...



It was shortly after this point that my husband began to notice that the drum was sounding really tired and dull.  As we were walking past the part of the forest where there had once been a coal mine, (long abandoned) the sound of the drum gave out almost completely, and he had to resort to tapping on the wooden side of the drum to keep up the beat.

We were about a quarter mile from the end of our walk, so we just kept moving until we climbed a hill and entered an area that is maintained by the city as a forested park, with mowed grass.


Black Hawk Forest, Rock Island, IL


As I walked, I had been keeping my ears and eyes open for some sort of sign from my spirit guides, but I had seen nothing I considered significant until we walked into this lovely glade and the drum suddenly changed it's voice.  Within a few steps its tone went from flaccid and dead to tight, high and cheerful, echoing off the surrounding trees.  

I would not share these things if they were not true.  

With renewed joy in my heart, I walked with my husband back to the Singing Bird Center, nearly done with my quest.  

Of course, we went back to visit the statue in front of the Hauberg Museum.  Being now the heat of August, there were no snowflakes drifting across the face of the stern-faced Makataimeshekiakiak, but he remained standing as we left him, wrapped in his blanket of stone and wearing his warmest stone leggings, gazing out over the cliff on the hill that bears his name.

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What Black Hawk Sees - The View from Watchtower Lodge, Rock Island, IL


On the ground, near the statue, we formed a medicine wheel using the sand we had collected back at the site of the Bad Axe Massacre.  Within, we placed items that we had gathered on our journey, the quadrants decorated in black, yellow, red and white.  At least one item in each color had been gathered that day in the Nature Preserve.   When Black Hawk's people died at the site of the massacre, their bodies became a part of the earth that exists there today.  By bringing that sand here, to this place, and pouring it onto the ground, I hoped to create a means of joining together these two physical places.  By using the sand as a medicine wheel, I hoped to use the energy of that joining to nurture and heal the earth, in a way that celebrates the eternity of the circle.

In the center of this medicine wheel, we left our final prayer stick, filled with all the love and positive energy we could muster.

There was one, final step to take before our journey was complete.  One, final sacred place to visit before the circle was truly closed.  Below us, at the base of the cliff, ran the Sinnissippi River, tumbling gently over the rocks that give the river its more common name, the Rock River.  It was time to sit with my feet in the river and have a smoke with the the spirits.




The summer sun dances merrily atop the tiny ripples that form on the water as it rushes over the sand and pebbles.  The smell of the water is wholesome and rich, full of the memory of laughing children and the promise of eternal life.  In the shallows, a family of mallards drifts lazily in the clear water of a spring-fed rill.  Across the stream a kingfisher plunges violently into the water, only to explode from the river a moment later with its prize, a tiny minnow, in its mouth.  In the middle of the river lies a tiny spit of an island, whose only inhabitants are two logs, an army of tiny sand and water-loving insects, and a dozen killdeer doing their best to make a meal of them.  





I knelt and touched the water - warm and comforting in the hot August sunshine.  The ducks cautiously approached, curiously hopeful of a handout but still beautifully wild and untouchable.  As I waded out into the stream, I let the warm water wash over my feet, and let the feeling wash through my entire body.

The ducks did not follow me to the island, and the killdeer were positively unhappy when we joined them there, but they flew to the other side and quickly learned to ignore us.  My husband and I sat on one of the logs, and I leaned my walking stick up against it with the end in the water where it started so very long ago.  We sat quietly and smoked, letting the ritual clear our hearts and minds.  Then we filled our mouths with the smoke and spoke to the spirits, the smoke flowing from out mouths so that it was possible to see our words, so that there could be no hidden meaning.



I felt very thankful at that moment.  I was thankful for the sun, and the earth, and the water. I was thankful for the animals and plants that help me survive.  I was thankful for my happiness, and all the things that were good in my life - far outweighing all the things that are hard.  I was thankful for the freedom that had been given to me, and that I had the resources I needed to be able to make this journey.  I was thankful for my spirit guides, in whatever form they showed themselves.  I was probably more thankful at that moment than I have ever been in my life.  I wish that I could remember to feel that way more often.  Today, I am thankful for the ability to share these thoughts with you, and if you are reading this and are pleased by my words, I am thankful that I have been able to bring happiness to your heart.  When our smoke was gone, I gave one final smile to the warm sunshine, took my husband by the hand, and walked back to shore.  The circle was complete.




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So why did I do this?  Why did I spend money and time tracing the footsteps of a band of people whose lives were tragically ended by the advancement of the American ideals of westward expansion, and the pursuit of happiness?  Of course, I have tried to talk about that in other posts, but now that I have reached the end of my journey, is there new insight?  Maybe.  In the end, I think I took this trip - and wrote this blog - for three reasons.

First, because I believe I was visited by the spirit of Black Hawk, and others, who felt that I had the ability to take this journey and tell the story on their behalf.  I believe part of this journey was to satisfy their needs, tell their story about the terrible wrongs that were committed, and bring some measure of peace and healing energy to the places and spirits that were affected.

Second, because in learning about these people, and their lives, and their deaths, I was able to get to know the part of myself that was given to me by my Native American Grandmother, whose name has been lost to history.  I now have a much better understanding of who she was and the values that were handed down to me though the generations that became my ancestors.  It has helped me to better understand that part of me that is Indian, and becomes more important to me with every passing day.

Third, I believe I did this because somewhere in the world, at some time in the future, there will be someone who reads this blog and it will change their lives for the better.  It's possible that the person meant to read this blog has already visited, read through these pages, and is even now benefiting somehow from what they read.  Perhaps it is a white person who is learning for the first time about how Native Americans were treated right here in our own corner of the earth, and is more understanding of the sins of their fathers, and more open-hearted towards Native Americans.  Perhaps it is a Native American person who reads this and allows the painful memories of the past to become the soothing wisdom of the future.  Or perhaps it is for the Granddaughter of Makataimeshekiakiak whose Native American history has been forcefully wrenched from her, forcing her to use the name 'Hawkins' and being told that means 'Hawk's kin'.  Maybe this journey, and this blog is meant to give her some sort of solace, or maybe just an outlet for her grief.  Maybe this person - the one whose life will be changed for the better because of what they read here - is you. 

As for myself, the thing I've gained that stands out most in my mind is the knowing of just how terrible were the wrongs committed against the Native Americans in forcefully removing them from this great land of ours theirs.  I certainly knew that the Indians were here before the Europeans came, but in my school I never heard about how insidious and one-sided the treaties were, or how unscrupulous the tactics, or how widespread and egregious were the hate crimes committed in the name of westward expansion and 'protecting our women and children'.  Not to mention the hypocrisy of a people who fled to this land under the threat of religious persecution and then used that self-same religious fervor to subjugate and condemn the people who were there before them.  And I'm not just talking about the Black Hawk conflict.  This same story of unjust persecution and extermination can be told over and over again.

This knowing - this knowledge of a dark and shadowed past - is a true thing.  It is an evil thing, and yet it is a good thing.  It is something to be held as a treasure and examined in the brightest light.  The blackness of this knowledge cannot survive in the light, and the deeper wisdom will shine from within.  That wisdom is the willingness to know right from wrong and the courage to act on the side of right.

Another lesson I learned is so obvious it needs to be explained.  It is the idea that even though I am but a tiny speck in the vastness of the universe, and the span of my lifetime does not represent a single drop in the fathomless oceans of time, nevertheless my life can and does have a profound affect on the world.  Yes, yes, I know, one person can make a difference, blah, blah, blah.  But it is true.  Not just the ones whose names strike a chord in history - for good or evil - but everyone, everyone makes a difference.  Think of Deer Heart and Yellow Flower - think of Cau-kee-ca-mac.  Think of the Six Sisters and Two Eagles.  Even their deaths had meaning, and we are all benefiting from the memory of their lives.  That means that everything I do - right down to which words I choose to put down in this blog - have meaning, and will have an impact, for better or worse.  I hope that I have chosen words that heal more than they harm.

There is a saying that inside each of us there are two wolves battling each other.  One is good.  It is kind, caring, thoughtful, and loyal.  One is evil.  It is vicious, hateful, spiteful and treacherous.  The one who wins?  The one you feed.

So as I close the circle on this journey, indeed as I near the end of my Medicine Wheel, I know that my sacred duty is to pass on the knowledge and wisdom that I have gained, and to give others the best of what I have so that they too can live their lives in harmony with each other and with nature.  Now more than ever, with so much hatred and evil in the world, we all have the individual responsibility to heal the earth and all the people in it.

No one person can heal the earth, but if you commit yourself to improving what is within your power to change, then everyone will benefit.  Look beyond yourself, and look beyond your lifetime.  Try to act with a vision of what your impact will be seven generations from now.  If in your lifetime you teach five people to be more accepting and caring of others, and those five people each teach five more, then seven generations from now 100,000 people will hold this wisdom in their hearts.  In this way, one person can change the world for the better.

I have journeyed all my life to find one of the sacred seeds of truth.  I have planted it here, hoping that it will grow into a sacred tree and bear fruit of its own.  I encourage you to go in search of your own sacred seeds, and nurture them, and together we will plant a sacred forest.

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Grandmother - I have searched for you all my life.  I never learned the name you used in life, but I know who you are because you have watched over me, guiding my path, and you have led me to discover the sacred seed of truth that gives meaning to my life and peace to my spirit.  In searching for you I have discovered who I am.  
To honor your memory, and your life, I will call you Voice of my Heart, so that I may remember you, and those that hear of you may have a name to remember you by.
Voice of my Heart - how could you know that there would be an empty place inside of me that needed your strength, and wisdom and guidance?  How could you know that unless I walked the path you walked in life, I would never know myself?  Is it because you, too, found the sacred seed of truth by listening to your grandmothers?  How you must be smiling now, knowing that I have finally found you, and discovered that you were always within me.  I have heard you, Voice of my Heart, and I will never forget the love you have given me.  Ah-ho.





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